I've realized that during the year, i'll probably post about once a week.. or every other week, I don;t want this to go to waste and like have no posts until late December when I get back home lol.
So I think most of you would be glad to hear that on Wednesday and Thursday, which were quite sunny and amazing, that I went out and had some good times! Roamed around and shopped with Rex and Angela and then went to Buffalo Wild Wings --which was amazing! And then we went to target and stayed there forever looking at movies and video games. And Thursday I got a haircut, which I think is alright but also went to Columbia to chill with people. Out of all the people I know that are on campus currently, almost all of them are busy with things whether is RA training, Orientation Leader (OL) training, some type of program the person is in, or they aren't even there...it does seem weird because you want to chill with people but you can't. Anyways Thursday was fun because it was a really random sequence of events, anyways I didn't really come here to start telling people about my day.
I was recently informed (and so were others) that a close friend of ours is leaving for home, and not returning to Columbia. For reasons that I don't even fully know yet, well I am trying to put bit and pieces of stories together. But she just didn't want to mention it because she did not want us to get too concerned with her situation. Considering I found out, the morning before she left to go back home, it was definitely a bomb that dropped way too soon. Like BAM, okay bye. I like others, was just speechless for a bit, wondering, confused, angry, sad, just sinking in my own mind for about 20 minutes or so until she asked me to start talking because it's better to say what I was thinking rather than just not speaking. So odd, it's similar to saying goodbye to a high school friend, except with high school friends you know they live in the same state so you will definitely see them if you make the effort (and if they do so as well). And i suppose similar to what would happen after graduation, but a graduation goodbye is bittersweet and you'll be somewhat mentally prepared (similar to high school), and this...was rather just unexpected, surprising and saddening.
I understand that she didn't want to make people act differently by telling people when she first decided to stay in her home state and go to school there, (given she decided last week) with her when hanging out because then the thought in a friend's mind would be, "oh man, but she's leaving on saturday I better be nice and make sure the day is really awesome..." We are all older and more mature now and have been in college for long enough to know how to make sound adult decisions and she has to do what she has to do whether that means she's here or she's not. It's going to be wierd because we won't see her as frequently, going from 8-9 months of the full year to 2 or 3 times a year is going to take some time to adjust to. AND we all move in next week... =/ I'm honestly tired of saying goodbyes, I almost just couldn't do it anymore, from leaving my suite, to leaving the students..rather, friends at ASP, to now this.. it's a bit much to handle in one summer.
Me and what I'd to like to call my primary social circle are a small family and we all hang out and have shared a lot with each other, although we kind of created some subdivisions and have gotten closer to other people in the group, I had was fortunate to get to know her very well and she was someone I really didn't mind saying anything that was on my mind to, and someone I was really comfortable with although she would always playfully give me a freaking hard time and was stubborn lol, but who isn't? I think every single person in that circle is extremely stubborn, with the exception of one of two people haha. The bonds you make in college with people are interesting, well specifically the closer friends you have, it's a very open, understanding and ever growing bond because everyone is going through the motions of college and going through similar life experiences. Anyways well she booked a flight to new york for thanksgiving time so we'll see her then, I hope everything goes well and that she gets to working on and fixing up or healing whatever needs to be aided. And if she ever wants to come back then that'd be great too.
Ahh I hope no one I know who is an incoming freshman has to deal with something like this, because honestly it's hard and something you aren't used to. People aren't used to goodbyes, only "good to see you"s prior to graduating. (Well whatever, I will see her later! =) )
--Until the next post. See ya.
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