What are you meant to do?

Thinking for the past few days, I looked at some youtube videos and came across and viewed many videos about what is someone purpose in life and about how everyone is hear for a reason.

Why exactly was everyone placed on this planet? What exactly are we supposed to do? (Besides being a product of parental shanigans)

Here's my take on it.. perhaps you'll agree.
I think that.. in some way, there is some sort of pre-determined list  and the is a "list" that you also form on your own.

Think about it, some of the things that happen in your life have almost been too coincidental. Or sometimes were you really meant to meet certain people in your life?

I think that, in terms of friends, the somehow we were already meant to meet them, like the world already devised this plan. Whether you'd meet at an event, or through a friend or because you set out to get the know them -- the world kind of planned that out already I think. Of course we don't really notice or think of it in this way, but I think it's something to consider.

Continuing, in friendships whether they last for a season or forever, you were meant to to affect their life in someway it was by saying hi or having fun or being always there for them -- there is always a result to any action.

Bottom line, the way you affect a person's life has already been put into place.. even if you make a random decision, that's already been set as well.

There is also the part of your someone's purpose in life that can slightly be altered.. but I havent thought about something that really justifies my claim. I was going to say a person job path or perhaps having children. But if you are supposed to have children, you will.

Ahh these are the random types of things I think about.. that sort of lead to dead ends. And also... I mean i did not really provide the best examples or the most eloquent way of discussing this, but as long as you get the gist of it that's okay with me.

So Instead of studying for the past hour..

Well, I did some random stuff and attended to things like, my jobs and other school obligations like being on production committee for the Culture Show and such.

Today was nice.. even beign in the library was oddly nice, studying silently and very hard, writing study guides and doing problems. I wish i was there longer.. but I went to a bday dinner and got back way too late ..because the library was almost closing by then. The dinner was great, korean bbq! I suppose the once a year thing holds true for me haha (because idk i feel like korean bbq can only be done once a year lol)

Thought: Where Do You Draw The Line Between Work and Play?

Thinking about it recently, isn't it a bit interesting to observe where each person draws that line. Some restrict themselves from doing anything fun (goings out to eat for dinner, hanging out with a friend  for bit, doings something interesting during their alone time, etc.), others find a balance between work and play and the rest..pretty much fool around all the time.

But how do these choices correspond to academic success? And to what extent does it matter... getting one third of a grade higher in a class? if you could have just had some fun and been happy for a period of time?

(Side note: for one class.. I can;t really think about this type of exchange... because I got myself into a predicament.. that I definitely must get through.. because if not, the grade in the class will be TERRIBLE (umm and that's not exaggerated, that;s on normal everyday people standards) *sigh* I can do this!!!!!! must..get..better grade..and ace final!)

Anyways, what do you think? Can happiness really be put to the side for an extended period of time, to just work work work and is it worth it? I think sometimes it is.. but that's just me.


And I wish I had a large amount of money.... because I anticipate funds...going down down down.. I blame people having birthdays! damn..

Anyways, Good Night!

Back! Up! and Running!

I feel like TV show that just came back from a writers strike! lol

OKAY! Let's keep it real, this is a TV show.. that has about 10 viewers (on a good day) and is on public access television (those random channels like, Queens TV or something).

To sum up how the term was going, I made the effort to reconnect with some people, sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't lol. And I took out some people in my life, who honestly didn't deserve my time at all, and they STILL don't (this was done.. like week three of the semester lol). All the time being, I pretty much did work, got little sleep, went out, met some new people, I did embark on some new adventures (okay, actually that meant joining a Korean Students Association Culture Show production team :)  and meeting a few new faces). Stuff happened, a lot things in my head fell down, collapsed etc. But now we are back on track! And..one rather fun thing happened right before I left, yay? 

----TIME CHANGE! ----

But yes! Although we are a tad tired.. I have to go back to school tomorrow. I really would prefer not to, because I have a midterm on Monday, and I also have no desire to be near Columbia University at all right now. I'm surprised I didn't hang out with high school friends... damn I really need to get on that... seriously.

Continuing, this break, was probably more necessary than winter break honestly. I was probably more stressed out than I was from finals week last term. And that's the truth. It was really crazy and I felt like nothing else could possibly go wrong in my head. There was just so many things to clear up in my head, so much sleep to catch up on, so my life decisions to really make, and so much focus to try and regain.  I think I managed to do a good amount for myself personally. However, if you know anything about what's been going on, with me, I am still wanting for the world to work with me on sending that special someone my way but I am not just sitting hear doing nothing I am collaborating with the world because the World and myself have to work together on this one.

Well that was funny!


I also managed to find my spring inspiration and look too! :)

Pictures will be up soon!
(okay so, let's aim for 2 posts a week.. I HAVE TO WRITE THIS ON A POST IT! lol)