parents, casual hangouts, and the near future.

a 3 in one today.

First things first,after the past few days of semi arguing with parents about stuff for going back to school and other stuff. I've noticed that my parents don't ask me if i need anything anymore, nor do they offer. But aside from that. I am too stubborn to ask for things because I think it's foolish for them to think that I don't need any money or whatever. I know it's the attitude I bring towards these situations that leaves me with nothing because I know if I was nicer and would kindly ask for it (maybe even nag) they both would probably figure out something and I would end up with at least something. Ever since after high school I just seem to have this stubborn attitude towards my parents and on the inside I just hope for them to ask if I want/need something. I need to be nicer and less hardened with them, and I won't end up an angry child who doesn't want to be home anymore lol. I just have to learn to go back to asking them the way I did in high school, no one got mad then. Also, part in me being stubborn is just that I'm not that connected with my family, like we kind of just talk about tv and food, and nothing more...I don't even play music in my house lol.

anyways...casual hangouts. I feel that the casual hangout, the somewhat one on one or three to five person hangout is really amazing. Provided that contact is kept between hangouts so it doesn't feel really random and that you are kind of good friends with them. Sometimes when I'm hanging out I feel like there should be a camera because of how things happen, like... frig MTV should give me and friends a show because sometime I feel like I'm on the hills (or the city lol) when hanging out.. or maybe that's just how some hangouts work, walking around talking, laughing, life stuff, shopping, eating and a train ride home =) I really enjoy them and I love hanging out and catching up and or just chilling with friends, it's a priority in my life and has been for a while. I want to advance the friendships I've made so far because having some good friends are important in anyone's life. Although many friends from high school have disappeared, it's okay most of them weren't worth it anyway. Some relationships I have made in college, hmm the ones I made early on are solid, the more recent ones are odd in the sense that you are trying to get to know people who are in a completely different social circle, which means you should get to know all of them too lol. and with getting to know all of them comes the complications of 10 people or so.. it's just a bit more difficult to make some solid friends past sophomore year in my opinion but I could be wrong *hopes* Well regardless of that I am happy with the relationships i have made so far. Even the super random ones!

Lastly, I recently got a tarot reading done from a good friend of mine, and I know people have some reservations about tarot readings, psychics, palm readings etc. I feel that some of them have some truth to them, or in my case a lot of truth. Who would have known by just splitting a deck and drawing some cards things would have turned out the way they did. I would choose not really to talk about it, just because..well just 'cuz, but it made a lot of sense and in short, I have to trust myself and do what I know is right and stop being indecisive or caught up in too many things. (I generalized it, there was much more to that.)

--Okay I'm out.. I have to catch up on some facebook posts, watch a movie downstairs and turn on this damn air conditioner. see ya.