Day 13: Family Woes & NYC Hoes Pt. 1

Hmm, I want to be able to finish this post within 20 minutes so that it could still be "Day 13" technically! And hooray I think this is the tenth post!

Lol on to the topic of discussion. This weekend I've spent.. a significant amount of time with my family and for those of you that know me well...my relationship with my family is an interesting one. I'm still trying to find "my place" per se in my family and I've kinda felt awkward at time just being in my house..we don't talk much or do that many things besides sit around and watch movies (and not talk). I've found the most conversation I've made with my immediate family is when I've been drunk. I know that's because walls get let down and I just say whatever, and it usually works out.

I went to the dinner + a movie with my dad and sister and it was pretty fun! I realized where I get my party side from -- My pops. He was saying stuff like, "I'm so glad that I don't work Fridays and Saturdays anymore because now I can PARTYYY!" and other things like, "Well, I would still go to parties with Maria (my step-mom) during the week and we'd get back so late..I'd wake up and not want to go to work..but you know..your dad can pull through a long day of work even when he's a little hungover." --Amazing Dad, this is what I will be like when I'm nearing 50 --same old crazy boy. It's really refreshing actually, to see how he stillis enjoying his life and having fun the way he wants. He used to not be like this before, and kind of just had a "whatever" view of life and didn't too much care for others. I'm glad he's having fun and enjoying himself!

We saw "Dinner for Schmucks" which was a pretty funny movie. It had a good story, compelling characters and random funny and crazy moments. 

Oh no.. it's 11:59PM -- dammit. I blame my sister and mom for chatting with me!

Day 10: This is what happens on occasion..

This was inspired by some of the experiences I've had recently within my neighborhood just walking around or talking the bus. Take from it what you will. No worries I'm a strong boy..and this hasn't been the first time something like this has ever happened. It's just that now since I'm more open with myself, and have a certain style...it's very easy to get noticed as my neighborhood is kinda conservative? idk lol.

You get on the bus
All eyes on you..in confusion
They look at you wondering what you are
And where you come from
Homegirl is over there trying to curl her lashes
And even she can take a second to stare
But what is so different about you?
Why are you getting all these looks?
It’s as if you are bacteria entering the body
And the passengers are the white blood cells

Because you look and act a certain way
Because you dress a different way
You are instantly judged, shunned...X-ed

You get out the train station
Decide to take a stroll home
It’s beautiful outside and the sun is shining
You walk down that block, minding your own business
You encounter a few boys, they stare at you
They stare back at each other and begin to laugh
Then then continue to look at you
One boy starts to follow you and say heinous phrases
You cross over to the other side of the street
It’s the longer route home with less people
The route where your house further away
This route contains less ignorance and harbors less fear within
The boy does not follow
You feel less nervous now. You are safe.