picture issues

okay so... I guess i have to google how to resize pictures using html... ugh because I'm a perfectionist and I don't this 3/4 of a picture shwoing up on my screen business.

=P

The Recent Rundown, and some thoughts

(I think the picture suits the tone for the first paragraph)
Well after coming home, it was so awkward, I wasn't hungry although I only had cereal and a portion for a croissant sandwich at Deluxe, tv wasn't appealing at all, all i knew is that i left and i needed to get back into shape because i gained 2 pounds during ASP. I'm really serious about getting into shape, first of all because during the break is the main time i can get focus with that type of stuff and 2) because I don't like gaining weight. Honestly though, that didn't even matter at this point and I was just mentally drained. Well enough about sad things. Well as the days passed by things got better within my head, as does happen with every move out. Actualy, my first move out was not emotional at all, perhaps because I didn't get too close to anyone in my suite freshman year, but this past year it was hard moving out because my suite was awesome. Onto the other random things I want to talk about.

So a super random drama wrap up without disclosing much. Well in short, I don't think that people who clearly ar uhappy should be together and constantly break up and get back together for unsubstantial reasons and sometimes, honestly, one party is truly settling for less. Eventually it gets frustrating to deal with the aftermath of a breakup more than 3 times, for the set to get back together in less than 2 days. It's really not fair to the friends around who try to help out (myself included). And for people wondering --"Well why don't you tell them?" well I have, and they are not people who listen to anything anyone says, they both are people who have to learn the hard way which is why I'm slowly growing indifferent to the situation. --Anyways, they are back together now, and will break up eventually again, next time I won't be there though.

Now comes the question: What should I do now?
I had many things I wanted to do, even an extensive list of places to eat at before my job started, but now...what is there really to do? I don't have anything in particular in mind, I have about 2 restaurants left that I want to go to but they are a bit pricey so I think I'll wait for a more special occasion, or just for more people who are willing to spend some cash so I won't feel bad. And I also don't have anymore income coming in my way... so I want to at least try to conserve money for a while and the only clothing I have interest in buying is short sleeve shirts, preferably a brighter color, just because my closet has so many dark colors. Anyways, what should I do, I usually have some type of conquest, but now I'm just bumming around which does get boring after a while. Maybe I should try to organize a lot of high school people hangouts, however, people are ALWAYS busy or don't just want to have a 2 person group to hang out =/ Perhaps I should use my $25 dollar gift card and go buy a book to read. Hmm I don't know. Maybe I should go around to famous buildings? ad then explore the area around? (EDIT! as of 1:50AM 8/18/09 I have received word from a friend of new food places to try out! Yay! However.. I'm not really that pumped for it, although I do love to try the occasional cupcake haha!)

There was something that I have been thinking about lately, but I have really forgotten what I was going to say. Well one thing that ALWAYS comes to mind is when I am eating potato chips. Okay so don't you ever wish that whatever powder that was on the chips that gave them flavor, would come in a little spice bottle. I wonder sometimes how food would taste if I put some "Cool Ranch" or "Smokin' Cheddar BBQ" flavor in it! Wouldn't that be awesome! Also I really really really want to play a good game of volleyball, but no one ever wants to go to the park anymore...what's up with that? Like during high school me and people went all the time, but now no one wants to do it. I may look like I am not physically active, but I actually can do a lot more than anyone thinks. Which is a good surprise I suppose, but bad for first impressions lol. Speaking of first impressions..damn those are always hard, because you want to put your best foot forward but not so forward that you end up stepping on the other person's foot; in some cases even STOMPING on them. Alas, I think I have learned to make a good impression on guys and girls, such a different approach for both but you still have to be "you" you know? hmm I guess I'm rambling now and I'm come back with a new topic instead of the rundown of the past couple of days because it would make things more creative to come with topics rather than journal entries! (However I felt these past couple of entries were necessary to fill the gap of of the of the shut down)

I guess I will watch some television, eat, get my tan on, and watch youtube for now until someone drags me out of my house (you know who you are people..remmeber that last post right?.. -_-) okay that's a lie...I usually end up asking someone to go out and do something because I'm bored.



See ya in a bit!